Attempting to Move

So I am trying out Wordpress for a bit....

http://geminigirl64.wordpress.com/

The other night I had a dream. I don't call it dreams when my grandmother comes to visit me since I know it's actually her.

My grandmother visits me often when I sleep. She never actually speaks to me, she is just there with her trademark radiance. Just writing about her makes me tear up... she was one in a million. I had never lost someone I cared so deeply about until she died last June.

Now usually she is there by herself. When I first started dreaming her, I always dreamt about her in her home- which was her mecca. She loved her home so much. I knew this meant that she hadn't passed on yet- she was still in her home and I was dreaming her there. I know this sounds wacky, but like Ive mentioned before I have always had some strange sixth sense which I try to tune out.

But when I visited my grandparents home in June, I didn't feel her there. She had passed on. This makes me happy because I know that she is in a better place.

Getting back to the other night, I dreamt her- but she brought someone else. My other grandmother!

I never met my father's mother since she died a year before I was born. I only know her through pictures and not stories as my father hardly ever mentions her.

So in the dream it was my grandmother who brought my other grandmother with her. It was as if she introduced me to her. It was so nice!

It really made me emotional when I woke up. Call me crazy or anything else you want- but this did happen.

Just to put things in perspective

Neve next to her preemie onesie:

What a difference 7 months can make....

Work:

I have yet to post about my new position and everything else going on in my work life.



So after my boss was let go they didn't know what to do with me. I was her executive assistant and therefore if there is no executive- where does that leave me?
HR kept me on hand and said they were "working on things".



What was being worked on was:



The new EVP (who was the SVP) wanted to get rid of his assistant. They always had problems and she would constantly complain about him to everyone. There was a total lack of communication, and she took on way more than she needed to be doing. This led to her ultimate downfall.



They were looking to let her go, and they did. I was not here that day, and I wasn't even sure if they were going to do it. But they did, and they offered me the position. I felt horrible. I liked her and she was older than me- older than my mother! She had been with the company for 15 years!

But if I didn't take the job, someone else would have and I have two mouths to feed! What could I do?

The job that I *really really* want is only going to become available sometime in 2009, so until then I will be here.

My manager is a good guy, and I'm pretty confident around him. He has complete faith in me which is a great thing (he had none in his former assistant). I always felt nervous around my old boss. She was a powerful woman, and I think women judge other women more harshly.

I don't want to be an assistant for the rest of my life. This is not my end all be all. I hate myself for being 27 and not have risen to a higher level at work, but my life took different turns. I know I am where I am supposed to be.

I confided in my old boss (spoke to her last week) about the way I feel and she implored me to take the new position when it is offered. She said I will learn a lot and that any company will take me in a heartbeat once I have worked there. Although it will be another assistant position, it is in the field that I am dying to get into and you actually learn a thing or two in the position. There is somewhere to grow. So I am feeling confident- especially since the woman who I would be working for really likes me and pretty much promised me the job once it becomes available. So we'll see. Too early to get my hopes up.

Life:
On a different note, I started Jen*ny Crai*g on Monday. A co-worker of mine gave birth to her son a month before my girls were born and she has lost a TON of weight on it. She is even thinner now than she was prior to pregnancy!
So when another co-worker said that she was starting, it inspired me. I got my tush to the center and now I am successfully on Day 4. I have no problem with self control- I hardly eat (which is my problem). It's losing these last 30 pounds that's killing me! I am not comfortable in my own skin. I miss my old wardrobe, and my old self-confidence. I am hoping that this will push start my weight loss.

8 months old

My friend Jackie was visiting New York (she's living in LA) in either Jan/ or Feb of this year. She came by to see the girls on her trip. She took pictures.


Look at how small they were!!!!!!


I was so tired here- look at Neve she looks high:

Because I got high....
Soleil "Why I outta"....

Neve: "Mom, is this cupcake on my shirt edible"?

My girls were 8 months old yesterday. How did that happen people? How!?

I know I'm going to miss these days, but right now I cant wait for them to get a bit older to do things by themselves. It's tiring!

We celebrated yesterday by taking them to the zoo:

Soleil: "No daddy, the map indicates the elephants are that way..."

Seriously this flamingo was coming to attack us:
I was trying not to smile but not to frown.. so of course I look crazy:


Mommy & Soleil:
Mommy & Neve How unfair is it that the male peacocks are the ones with the beautiful feathers. Look at how cocky he is!:

Sup?
Nevey-O:

These two guys had puppets. I told them to try and scare the girls:

Soleil trying to grab: Neve seems disturbed:

Soleil driving us home:All in all it was a nice day. Long but nice.

Word Bubble

Very Telling. Got this from Stacie.

Bring Soleil to Work Day

Yesterday I took Soleil to work with me. Since my new Boss is on vacation, and it was summer Friday (we get to leave at 1pm) I thought it would be an opportunity to bring her in since my co=workers begged me to. I couldn't bring them both because there is no elevator in my subway station and I cant manage to carry my double stroller plus the two by myself. So I placed her in my carry on and off we went.



Originally I was going to flip a coin to see who I was going to take. I quickly realized that Neve is a screecher and that wouldn't work so well in an office environment so I took Soleil. I will take Neve alone somewhere else. I am after all an equal opportunity employer.






I work at a Fun place that happens to have toys galore for Soleil to play with:


My Cube... my prison: Co- workers in their early 20's who are baby crazy. Ah to be 22 again...
Soleil sleeping in my boss's office. She's already taking over corporate America: