Here are my little ladies as they are right now:



The past few days have been quite a daze. The days mesh together to create one long day- esp when you sleep when you can. Not quite sure what day of the week it is or date. I need to look at the calendar for that!

Its been great having my husband home the past week and a half. We tried waking up every time the girls did- each taking duty over one- but that did not work. We were zombies. So we now do 4 hour shifts each and let the other sleep in our bedroom in our king sized bed, uninterrupted unless we really need the other's help.


Having twins is very very hard and there is no manual. When we had Neve it seemed like a piece of cake- 2 adults, one child. Now we each have one and their needs need to be met asap. Everyone says the first 3 months are the hardest, so we are keeping hope alive knowing that this is the hardest part of the process. Wednesday night at 2:30am, I had my first crying fit. My husband was sleeping and I tired to manage both girls, but they wanted to eat at the same time. Ok, I somehow managed. They pooped at the same time, so I changed them and managed. But Neve did not want to stop eating. I fed her, and 30 minutes later she wanted more. this continued for 2.5 hours until Soleil woke up and cried to be fed as well. I walked into my sleeping husband and handed him our daughters- I just couldn't do it anymore. I was on no sleep and not being able to fulfill their needs killed me. I cried on the bed while my husband started feeding them. He was completely supportive. I proceeded to go to bed for a few hours and slept it off.

I have noticed how many people have been commenting about how great it is that my husband helps with the girls. They compliment him all the time. This bothers me. I mean, why is it a surprise or a plus when a husband "helps" with the kids. I feel that a marriage is 50-50 and I expect my man to help.

The other day I was at my best friend's parents house. We took the girls, since her family is like my own. So when it was time to leave, my husband got up and loaded the girls into their car seats. My friend's husband and her brother sat there and said "Wow, he helps a lot". This made me so mad! So of course, I had to answer "I wouldn't have married him otherwise". These men hardly ever help their wives with the kids. Maybe they think that they don't have to since they work and their wives are stay at home moms- but that is still no excuse! These men must think that I am lazy and not a "good wife". Its not as though we are living in the 50's- its a new age. Men should help and share responsibilities. I mean, women now work out of the home as well. We cant do it all alone- just like our mothers did. Every time I was at my grandparent's house (in ISRAEL) growing up and until today, we would have huge family dinners. The women would slave all day in the kitchen, while the men sat around. Then after dinner we women would be expected to clean up while the men wouldn't lift a finger. They would go sit outside on the lawn with their after dinner coffee- which we made of course. I hated it! As a teen I always spoke up about this inequality, but no one cared to listen. You cant change the system. My grandmother (may GD rest her soul) lived to serve her husband and family. She never ever complained and loved doing things for others. I don't know how she did it. I don't.

This past Saturday- Sabbath, my husband and father went to temple and named our daughters. This is a religious ceremony. They pretty much go and announce their names- and it is officially their names in GD's eyes. It was nice that they went and did this. I wish I could have been there as well, but women don't usually join in (another sexist part of religion).


Today we are taking Soleil for a pre scheduled head ultrasound that the NICU had scheduled prior to being released. You know I worry so much about Neve. She is so quiet and in her thoughts. She only cried when she's hungry- unlike Soleil. She doesn't make too much eye contact and I know that it's because she's a preemie and it takes time. But I still worry to no end. I pray that everything is ok with her developmentally- but of course, you never know until the day comes.


I saw a wonderful movie last night that I highly recommend- The Namesake. It's out on DVD now and its a wonderful story about the Indian/American culture and it can pretty much relate to anyone who has roots in other parts of the world.
So that's pretty much it- but I do want to congratulate K at roleplayingwithkids. She is now pregnant with her second set of twins! We all admire you K!